My, oh my. What in the world is going on?
This sure will be a way to come back from a hiatus! LOL – Honestly, this post is a total venting post. So, forewarning, there is going to be some real talk in here.

Basically, lately, my life seems to be running in a flat line of mediocrity, which, if you know anything about me, probably has you thinking, ‘what the…..?’
But guess what? At the moment, I’m having one of those, ‘What the hell is my purpose in this life, and how do I start chasing another dream?” moments. Truthfully, its been a couple of months of this but usually the thoughts are, “My life is amazing, I’m so blessed. There are so many blessings in my life.” I don’t think its very fair for us to criticize ourselves for having both types of thoughts, because life is ultimately a balance between the duality of all things… Anyways!

First question to myself: Well Emily, what is your dream?     …… *crickets*…….. That, right there my friends, is the first problem to all of this…… What, is my dream?

When my dad was alive, I knew I had a purpose… I’m not sure if I could pin point an exact dream at that time, so lets go with the fact that I knew I was here for some reason.. that reason being to help my dad as much as I could and to learn everything I could from the situation so as to be able to help friends when they went/go through losing a parent(I was 26 at the time and not a lot of my friends have gone through that even now at a few months shy of 30).  – And that, is fulfilling to know: that what I went through will essentially help someone else in some way when its all talked about or experienced.

But, it feels like I need to go chase after something… or feel some type of purpose towards something..

Now, chasing a dream could be many, many types of things. It could mean striving to reach the top of your career, being a rockstar, traveling to every continent of the world..

But having that dream, leads to having a sense of purpose.. right? So, as the title of this post asks, “How do you find your purpose?”

Do you just, go somewhere new to discover new things? Do you take a class in something you’re interested in to see if it leads to a deeper passion? Do you do something you’ve absolutely never thought about before to feel out if you love it? Do you just close your eyes and think of where you want to be and then just GO for wherever and whatever that is?

If you were looking for answer from me on this one, you’re SOL, because I’m looking for the answer myself.

All words of wisdom are very, very welcome. I’m reading about 3 life-style/motivational books already but if you have some that you swear by, please drop them in the comments! 🙂

Thanks for listening.